In my first blog I mentioned that I had a pretty rough year and I really wanted to tell you all about the people who helped me!
I had gone on a website called Beat Bullying as my sister used to be a mentor I knew I could get the support I need, after several sessions of speaking to a counsellor she told me that I HAVE to speak to a teacher in school, so I did, and you can all guessed how that turned out! So at my next online counselling session I old her how it went and she said try again with someone else, to which after my experience I to.d her that I didn't think that was the best solution and after speaking to her during that session she managed to convince me!
Now I personally find telling people my problems face to face extremely hard, it's awkward and I may get upset! I always felt as if teachers aren't there to support you with your life outside of school and honestly this teacher really changed my mind!
I'd gone to her and thought to tell her something small, I told her. About being bullied without mentioning any names. The way she reacted really made me trust her! She was shocked and supported me yet didn't push me too much to try and get any names out of me and was always there to listen whenever I needed! She always said to me when I left, "if you want to speak to me you know where I am" and this was so amazing. It sounds stupid and small to you but just to be told that you've got someone there for you really did help!
I then continued to tell her about my grandpas cancer when he got extremely ill and again she continued to be there for me and to support me and she told me about her grandpa as he went through the same thing which I would never have known about!
Then of course when he passed away she yet again was there for me! ... Then she left the school at the end of the year... I had no contact with her other than the school email and had no one there for me other than my online counsellor who did help me massively! But I was broken! I was on my own! Whenever I had a problem I'd want to tell her but it was an empty room or another teacher in her place, it was really really horrible! And to this day I still miss her so much and if she see's this which I hope this is anonymous then I'd love to tell you how much you helped me and I can't thank you enough!
Just to add insult to injury not to long after Beat Bullying ran out of funds therefore I've also got no contact with my counsellor so this year I'd really been on my own and of course the drama continued and I had no one to tell! I've got a new group of my friends but I can't tell the, I really did trust her!
Although in conclusion if you're having a hard time whether that's dealing with death, someone being ill, bullying, parents divorce anything that will be seriously affecting you, please tell a teacher you trust! It could save your life! It does help!
Please let me know if this blog was interesting or any topics you'd like me to speak about! I've experienced all of the above! I'm also more than happy to tell you about my anxiety or my daily life! I hope this was interesting I will post more soon! Have an amazing night remember to smile :) xx
